Took a Break from Life

Okay so I am back, kind of.

Sigh, I have had a good bout with the baby blues hence going back to work early... I know, this seems like the reverse thing to do... but I needed to get back to a routine, I needed grown up contact, I needed a project and to be busy with the world.

I also needed a little bit of help from some "happy pills" for full disclosure.  I am not going to lie, and pretend that I can handle this solely on my own... thank god for my mom and her ability to just listen to my rants and raves and just to come and save the day every now and then. And to clean my house when I have given up for the whole week.

Bryan has been wonderful, even though he has no clue what the hell baby blues are and what he can do to help - he just tries to be lighthearted about it and bring out the funny in the situation - which I really do appreciate...

So back to work I am.  I have a new manager and a new merchant which I am really excited about.  My role has slightly changed (in a good way) and I am try to change and adjust to the new norm... slower than I would like but I will catch up soon!  I have a lot of good people backing me and I feel good about it all.

Emily is being an awesome good big sister, and we are trying to get rid of the Paci.  We are on day 2 night 3... Yesterday we had a "No More Paci Party". 

The deal was, I forgot the Paci at daycare Monday night - uh oh - so I quickly took advantage of the situation and told Emily that if she went to bed without Paci, and did daycare without Paci she could have a party with a cake... Well she did awesome, and Tuesday I went and bought a huge butterfly balloon, a muffin sized cupcake and decorated her room with tulle and sparkle beads...

Party was a huge success, we danced with stuffed animals, cheered about no more paci, and how Emily was a big girl....she loved it.

Then came bedtime.

Big meltdown.  The "I hate you mom" kind of meltdown.  She even tried to negotiate for her Paci back.  She told me to take down the decorations, take back the balloon and give her back the Paci.  I was actually really impressed by her logic.  But no dice.

I think I spent a good hour listening to her rant and rave.  If Bryan had been there, he would have caved.  But I have a heart of stone ;) and want to be done with the Paci.  We shall see how tonight goes!

Eli is great, starting to smile and that makes my ego go through the roof... I am pretty sure he thinks I am the best looking mom he has ever seen!

T-O - Double Dizzle aka. Todd the cat is doing well... we still know the odds there but feel good about being able to give him a good kitty life however long or short it is.

Thomas the man cat is not thrilled with this.  Not at all.

Otherwise, life is almost into a groove but more like a manageable chaos... just the way the Vargas family likes it!