Oh wow I am glum.
Maybe it is work stress, maybe home life stress... maybe it is the fact that my daughter is clever enough to stack boxes to get to the freezer to get her "freezies". But I am about done. I have hit my limit and would like to lock myself in a bathroom with no kids, no husband, no phone or laptop with a bottle of Riesling and forget the world for a bit... or for a long while.
It honestly doesn't feel like the Holidays to me right now (the day before Christmas Eve) and I sometimes wonder if I feel this way, how many others in not such a good spot must feel? And I have to get over it fast. But these glums have got to go!
Bryan and I have started our New Year's Resolution a bit early this year out of necessity. We are trying to be fiscally responsible so that we can start to afford some of our dreams.... and I am going to tell you it is not fun. Not at all. But it is doable and we have to, if we want to reach our goals in a timely manner.
This means I have to start cooking (turns out making your own meals can be cheaper than eating out every night - go figure!). I have mastered the rice cooker... and found some fabulous brow rice that is very very similar to P F Chang's brown rice... now I have got to think of things to go with it - - - That I have the patience to cook and can actually cook.
That is the thing, I hate every part of cooking minus the eating part. Prep- takes too long, I like my food now... thank you very much. Cleaning - I really don't need another thing to clean when I have a 3 year old and a 6 month old. Soooo that leaves me with very little options...
But I am slightly willing to change. And I think if I can start cooking a bit - I can start managing my weight a little more since I know what is going into my body and there will be a lot less fries making their way in!
Gah - now off to fight these blues - and to fight some more laundry.
I know this is late but change is hard, and glums are a part of the impending change. Taking on something like fiscal responsibility is HUGE, and yes it will be worth it in the end, and even along the way a little bit, but wow is it a huge re-maneuvering of priorities, habits, and family customs. Have you thought about putting out some kind of visual reminder of where you are and where you have to go? Kyle did that for me when we were saving for our house because I a) suck at saving money and b) am a visual learner. Or maybe every time you cook in instead of eating out, you put a colorful stone in a jar or something...
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