Sanding off Insanity

Okay, I have an issue with confidence...

One moment I can think I am the total shit - the bomb - no one can compete. 

The next moment I am calling in all reinforcements, needing pep talks from the hubby, from my mom, from anyone who will give me positive reinforcement.

Obviously this is something I need to work on.  I need to know that I do good work, people appreciate it, and that I can do anything I want to do and put my mind to.  I am not sure where this self doubt comes from but I am always waiting for the next shoe to drop.

So today, as I wait for a call for either the next round of interviews or the "we went with another candidate" call I am freaking.  I really am. My husband is going to be thrilled when this whole process is over.  And the thing is - I am at home taking care of Eli with nothing else to distract myself.  So of course I am over analyzing every aspect of my interview... was that smile a good indication or not... did I stumble over my words too much? Ugh.  Time to turn off the brain and turn on the creative outlet for my insanity.

So I have decided to start sanding my kitchen walls.  I will distract myself by destroying my house one wall at a time!!!  I think this is a genius plan.  Good call.

P.S. Mom is coming this weekend so don't worry too much - okay worry a little bit :)