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Emily has been in bed for a good 20 minutes ...yet my husband is glued to Tinkerbell and keeps telling me/asking me "are you watching this...did you see that" along with a few giggles and full on laughs mixed in between.

Blackmail for future uses aka. house improvements ;)

My Husband has Promised me Paint, I don't think he knows what he just signed up for...

We are ready for projects in the Vargas house.  Even after a long day at the Galleria in Edina (most of the time spent in Creative Kids letting Emily play her heart out) Bryan finished removing all the "guest bedroom furniture" out of the guest bedroom  to make room for the new baby yesterday. I even set up the crib when Bryan freaked out b/c he got frustrated.

Yes, I don't cook but I will decorate like no other and that even includes putting furniture together!  We have also decided on a "theme" for the new nursery.  Following what we did with Emily's room, we found a great kids book that has great illustrations.  It is call "Dogs" by Emily Gravett.  Anyone surprised?  Well we are picking our favorite pictures and will be framing them and putting them up in the room.

Small Preview :)

This has gotten the juices flowing.... We want major changes in our house.  Good bones but needs love, obviously you can tell this from my previous posts...kitchen remodel...bathroom re-remodel (we will be tearing out the tile we just did - insane we know)....backyard remodel...

But we want change now, but don't have the funds or great connections with a construction crew, so that equals paint!!!!!  Paint is a great way to get the instant change you need at a small budget :)

The real question is - what room will we be going after?  The Nursery?  The Living Room?  The Living Room and Fire Place?!?!?!  Actually, the real question is ....what room will not make Bryan freak out on me?  By freak out I mean, test his patience (he has none) with paint chips, details, moving of furniture?  

To be fair, I usually come home with at least 15 paint chips...or more.  But here is my sneaky strategy... I am letting him sleep right now... yup a well rested Bryan is easier to manipulate (I am aiming for the living room & and fire place so I will need all the help in the convincing area).  I want a green living room something along the lines of this:

And a white fireplace (it is currently beige brick - no not a brick that you can make look any better other than paint or tile over...) so until we have a little extra money to tile we (I) want to paint it....

Wish me luck... hopefully I will have pictures up later of whatever room we decide to do :)

 UPDATE: Bryan won with his logic (and I really didn't want to deal with a grump all night).  He pulled the whole - you have a green couch - you want to paint your walls green- you are going to have a green blob of a room for a while strategy.  Touche, well played Bryan. So it is the nursery...

Quote of the Night

Me: Do you think Thomas (our man cat) really loves us or just puts up with us...

B:  He loves me, and puts up with you

Me: Well he is always sleeping with me and on me...

B:  No Meg, he has been trying to smother you all these years...

Thank you B - love you too and love you too Thomas aka. Man Cat

Think I I am done being a shit at work

Okay, I think I have finally turned a page....finally had a few days to breath, catch up and feel slightly on top of things...huge benefit for all that surround me.

Really - I have not called anyone's ideas stupid in over a week ( I know, crazy and quite the accomplishment)  I haven't bitten anyone's head off and was actually helpful today!!!

I also think I have realized how angry and frustrated I have been, cause when a director level person is timid and slightly scared to ask me for help...that says that I am not hiding these frustrations and angry spurts well enough and I hate being that person.

So I am completely happy with myself that I have turned the angry page and can get back to being my charming, sarcastic happy (slightly jaded) self.  It feels so much better to come home in some what of a good mood not needing to totally rage :)

And the snow is melting! Believe it or not I think Spring is teasing me again... and the fact that my sister actually said she missed St. Paul and I think she might have even included me in the list... I really am going to try and exploit her homesickness/need for family and try and convince her to move up (it is a very very long shot).

I think the ice cream from yesterday night was just the ticket :)  

Hope all is well with you,

Meg

Having one of those Moments

Where I realize that I am not famous, do not have a famous person's paycheck.  Now, before you start thinking that I want a $2,000 purse or something along those lines - that is not where I am going - but if you want to gift me a $2,000 purse I wouldn't mind - if it is not ugly....

Where I am headed is a budget... Had a small conversation on the cost of Law School...maybe going to a one income...and what that really means... 

Needless to say I am having a small (okay - extremely large) panic attack while googling "How to go to Law School with a Family" let me just say there aren't many supportive words out there....mostly along the lines of "it is hard as F**k."  So I stopped googling that and moved on to figuring out how we can come out ahead in this market and economy...that is not making me feel any better :( need a new strategy.


Let us move on....

Okay this is just a pity post and I just little pick me up.  Off to the fridge I go - 

Vanilla Icecream + Caramel = Perfect Pick Me Up

Tomorrow will be better :)

 

So on to some good news!!!

No- we haven't decided on a name....but Bryan did pretty well on the LSATs - he can definitely get into a few law schools up here but is planning on taking them again in June to get a better score hoping for more scholarship opportunities...


Why do we automatically think he would do better next time around?  Cause the fool that I call my husband didn't study this time around... again this is why we have the love hate relationship- he is extremely good at being book smart, but may lack in the life smarts category... I make up for that in the relationship ;)


But anyways I am super proud of him, we can actually start moving forward with the Law School plans and just yay!  


AND - the bigger exciting of the news of the day....dun dun dun.... my husband got us tickets to the Home and Garden expo this weekend!  I am so excited to go and get some great ideas from pros....I know you are confused here....thinking "but wait Megan, aren't you guys home improvement pros with licenses etc?"  oh you guys are so silly but flattering... we are anything but pros...


But I am so excited to go since the f 'en groundhog seemed to have gotten it wrong...Winter decided to hang around a bit longer than I would like -grrrr. 


And on a side note - I don't get the new Britney Spears music video - not impressed by the dancing, editing and what she is trying to do with here image.


But you should listen to this: I Follow Rivers


My sister who has a pretty good ear turned me on to her a year or two ago and I have not been disappointed.  The new CD is fabulous - just my opinion- which you can take or leave :)

Do you ever feel like you are drowning in emails?!?!

So I am sitting here - avoiding doing work and staring at my inbox.  I have this violent urge to delete every one of my 1,000 plus emails and start fresh.  Just send out a mass email to the world that say "What do you need from me? What have I forgotten? and... Really you can't figure this one out on your own?"

I feel like I am caving.  I can't keep up with being super mom, okay way exaggerating there... I don't cook and Finding Nemo has become my morning savior... but on to my rant... I can't be the super worker at work, and to top it all off I still have a mullet I am trying to grow out and am at the stage of pregnancy where I do not feel cute, pretty or sexy.  And I am pretty sure my eye is going to start twitching any second....

But really, I know I just have to take a step back and realize that I can't do everything, can't be everything to everyone and just have to buck up suck it up have a diet mtn dew and get on with it. 

I just wish I could actually do it.  I don't like letting people down, I do have a hero complex where I do like to save the day and be the one person people can count on...but my cape is slipping and I am pretty sure I can't fit into the spandex super hero outfit anymore (it would be pretty comical to see wonder woman with a baby bump - I am just sayin'). But I am at a loss... I feel drained.  I feel like I could cry on cue - and I really wish I was one of those cute criers but I am not....so I am going to try and hold it in for the good of mankind...

So until I figure out how to master all of this I am just going to take my frustrations out on a large box of Red Vines - you know they are fat free right?

P.S.  Found the next best thing to deleting emails - just file them away and pretend you read them :)